I really can’t do this anymore. Sitting here knowing for a fact it won’t get any better and there’s nothing I can do. I can’t accept the fact that you won’t be here soon. I can’t see my future being bright because I’m so scared to go school, they don’t understand that I don’t need help at school, they have given me what they think I need and they think I’m selfish because I don’t go. I just want to be happy, I don’t want to be a girl who dresses as a boy or a girl who wants to be a boy, I don’t want to change slowly I just want to be him now. I don’t want anything to do with her, she ruins everything. Lacey shouldn’t even exist. Why am I even alive. I just want to die. I’m scared to tell anyone how I feel. Because I don’t want to talk about It, I want it to change and I can’t do that. So there is only one way I can actually be happy. I’m scared but it’s better than what will happen if I stay alive. I’m sorry to the people who actually meant it when they said they cared.